carrot77

i need to quit!!!!

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 01:35:03 GMT

I am so frustrated and SO in over my head I just have to get this out! I just cannot DO this schedule at work anymore! I asked to go from a .5 (working 5 days every 2 weeks) to a .3 because of school. I have not had a day off in 2 weeks. I'm completely EXHAUSTED- mentally, emotionally and physically. My manager now put me on for EVERY weekend instead. Well... I understand I'm not leaving many options open... it's just that Saturdays and Sundays are my ONLY days to see Sergio, plus I go to church on Sundays. I could just CRY right now. I need that time with Sergio and also at church to re-charge myself after the draining weeks I have pouring over school and work. I am BURNT out. Prayers are appreciated.

slightly annoyed

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 07:30:56 GMT

The other day while I was at Grandma Sally's one of the waitresses came up to congratulate me on being pregnant. I'm NOT pregnant. GRRRRR. Yesterday in church someone told me I looked pregnant AGAIN. What the flush people?! Then they told me that I looked like I had gained weight but that it was okay because I look better when I gain weight. I seriously cried for like 2 hours after that. I've gone from being self-conscious to extremely self conscious. Thanks a lot.

I love this prayer

Fri, 10 Aug 2007 04:10:21 GMT

Abba, I surrender my will and my life to you today, without reservation and with humble confidence, for you are my loving father. Set me free from self-consciousness, from anxiety about tomorrow, and from the tyranny of the approval and disapproval of others, that I may find joy and delight simply and soley in pleasing you. May my inner freedom be a compelling sign of your presence, your peace, your power, and your love. Let your plan for my life and the lives of all your children gracefully unfold one day at a time. I love you with all my heart, and I place all my confidence in you, for you are my Abba.
- A prayer by Brennan Manning from Ruthless Trust

I feel kinda bad...

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 05:17:54 GMT

Tonight we celebrated Jamie's 30th birthday. As usual, my mom was the life of the party and was crackin everyone up with her funny nursing stories. Well, if you don' t know my mom, sometimes her sense of humor can come off across as a bit weird, and in this case vulgar. Since she is an ICU nurse she deals with death a lot, so, of course, she started telling funny stories about patients dying. They really were funny stories. I know that death is not a funny topic, but you have to realize that #1 my mom is a really good story teller and #2 when you work with death every day, having a sense of humor is a necessary coping mechanism. So anyways, I was crackin up and so were most people, but I happened to notice that Jamie's friend Karen was not amused at all. In fact, she almost looked disturbed. I kept wondering "why the sour face?!?!" It didn't dawn on me until just now as I was brushing my teeth that Karen has had two family members that she was very close to die within the past year. Yeah, I feel kinda bad. I hope she doesn't think we are sick-minded-insensitive people.

Update

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 20:34:35 GMT

Well... my birthday ended up being not so bad afterall. Sergio bought me diamond earrings. I told him over and over again that I don't need expensive presents, but every year he does the same thing- he forgets to do anything and then to make up for it he ends up buying me something really expensive. I told him to take them back and that he didn't have to buy me something so nice, but I think that hurt his feelings, so here I am enjoying my pretty new earrings!

There they are! Probably too small for you to see!

I'm sad

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 07:08:55 GMT

Hi people. It's me. I'm sad. Today is my birthday and once again Sergio forgot. I just get really hurt when the one person I expect to remember and care about my birthday doesn't. He doesn't get it. I don't expected expensive presents or a big whooop-dee-dooo. I just want to know that he's put some thought into it and that he cares. I mean geeeesh. I start planning his birthday 11 months before it's gonna happen. I LOVE surprising him! I love surprising everyone I love. Last year I bought him really expensive tickets to a concert he really wanted to go to and I totally surprised him. He had NOOOOO clue whatsoever that I even knew who the guy was. It was so exciting just to see how happy he was! Those of you who don't know Sergio are gonna think he's a jerk, but really he's not. In fact, I'm probably the one who's being a jerk here (either that or I'm just being a girl). He does stuff for me every day. He always goes out of his way to make me happy and he treats me like a princess. He can't say no to me (I'm probably just really spoiled). So please, if you don't know him don't misunderstand me. I mean, he techincally didn't forget my birthday- it's just that he worked every day this past week (which means getting up at 6:30 am and going to bed at 2am) which didn't leave much time for thinking about my birthday. I just want to cry though. I mean after 3 years you think we'd get over this by now. But every year it's the same story. I must have totally unrealistic expectations. It's highly possible. But come on... are there any girls out there who can relate to my feelings of disappointment even a litttttttle bit?!?!!?!!?

Sat, 02 Jun 2007 04:42:16 GMT

I am scared. I have to run a 5k with Jackie tomorrow. I am not scared about running it, more scared about waking up early because it's almost midnight. I am NOT sleeepy at all!!!! I wish I didn't have to work tomorrow! boooo!

pooo on you

Thu, 24 May 2007 16:59:51 GMT

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I am mad.... nobody is answering my phone calls and/or calling me back this morning and it is making me sad/annoyed.

Thu, 24 May 2007 07:01:18 GMT

I am not sleepy at all! woohoo!

i'll shut up after this :)

Sat, 12 May 2007 02:05:36 GMT

Remember this...

I'm so happy- now I have this...

Sat, 05 May 2007 04:39:46 GMT

I feel sad. I never ever see Sergio. He works 17 hours a day. Today I actually didn't have anything to do. I'm done with school and I don't start work until Monday. Of course I was looking forward to seeing him ALL day, and then I find out that he has to close tonight. He usually doesn't close on Friday's so I was really sad when he told me this. I feel like such a loser waiting around for him to get off of work.

weirdness

Fri, 04 May 2007 03:32:14 GMT

Now that school is over I don't know what to do with myself. Ho-hum. It appears that I actually might have time to take up a hobby or two.

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 00:25:40 GMT

I got a new car! It's a 2003 toyota corolla. silver. I'm excited because this is my first non-peice-of-junk car ever.

I am a procrastinator

Sun, 15 Apr 2007 04:11:50 GMT

These pictures are kind of washed out b/c it was really sunny and I took them at a bad angle. Anyhoodle... I'm putting off my homewor so I thought I'd share some recent pics. This is my in my nursing school get-up. hehe. Don't let the uniform full you, all I do is wipe butts. hehe. jk.

Sister day @ Starbucks, Angie's bday.

more sister's. katie and ashley.

My little prayer

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 01:38:06 GMT

Hello friends. Well, the week is over and I am releived to say the least. I had the most dreaded test of the semester, fluid/electrolyte/acid/base. This was by far the hardest test I've taken all year. In the past I have studied my butt off for these tests, but by the time this one came around I was pooped and up to my neck in work because we had had two tests right before that and clinical paper work as well. I just plain ran out of time to study for this one. The night before the test I was in panic mode because I knew the test was first thing the next morning and I wasn't prepared. What could I do? The next morning I said my prayers and jumped into the test. When I checked my grade later that night I fully expected the worst. I knew that this test had the ability to drop me from the program (in nursing school you have to pass all of your classess with at least a 77% or you're toast, and nursing tests are the hardest tests you will ever take). Anyhoodle, like I was saying, I braced myself for the worst, and when I finally got my grade up, it was a 94%! The only A I've gotten all year just happened to be on the hardest test, and the one that I had the least amount of time to study for. God has a sense of humor. I think he helped me out with this one. The other day I was driving and just feeling really discouraged/burnt out with nursing school. I said to God, "If this is what I'm supposed to be doing then, just send me some encouragement, please." I think maybe this was one of His mysterious ways of answering those little muttered prayers I'm always making. I think the 93% I got on the test the week before was another answered prayer. Unfortuantley I am wired to forget God's handprints in my every day life, this just served as a little reminder.

Love is in the air... hehe

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 22:19:05 GMT

I just got back from a Jennie's (a friend from school/church) bridal shower a little bit ago. I feel really exited for her, partly because she and her fiance, Michael, have gone through a lot of the same stuff that Sergio and I have gone through. We sort of connected on all of that. I didn't know a single person at her shower because I'm the only person from school that went. It was kind of awkward for the first 5 minutes because I am a naturally shy person, but fortunately I found a few other people who didn't know anyone else either which made it okay afterall. It ended up being pretty fun. I have to admit that watching her open up all of those presents was exhilirating! hehe! It was also good for me to go because Angie's shower is next month and we have to come up with ideas for it. Patti (Randy's mom) has pretty much taken over, which is kind of annoying, but then again I guess I'm glad she's doing that because that means I don't have to pay for anything. Since I'm not working right now that's a plus. Anyhoodle... I'm working on my concept map for clinical right now and it's driving me up the wall, as usual! Guess I should get back to work!

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 02:44:05 GMT

I am SOSOSOSOSOOSOSOOOOO happy! I just found out I got a 93% on the test I took today! Hooray! 1 down, 2 to go! Yikes! I'm gonna be busy tomorrow!
Btw... monday at clinical was my first day passing meds. It actually wasn't that bad. I also gave my first injection, and I got to start and I.V. piggy back. After I started the IVPB I discovered that my patient's I.V. had infiltrated and I got to remove it. The I.V. nurse came up and started a new one (it took her 3 times!). Anyhooodle, then I got to start the IVPB up again but I had accidentally contaminated the tubing when I was taking the I.V. out so I got to change all of the tubing. It was a fun day. I was really busy! I hope I get to do more stuff next week. I'm starting to feel like a real nurse. hehe. I need a job though!!! Ahhhh!

I hate being sick.

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 19:22:22 GMT

I have the WORST/MOST PAINFUL ear infection EVER. Not to mention I've had the stomach flu for the past 2 days and have been wretching my brains out. I am sososososososososososo sick of being nauseated!!!!!!! To top that all off I have a UTI. I had to miss clinical today. djf a;lskjdfl;akj f. I feel like crap and today just happens to be the most beautiful day EVER.

Pride comes before a fall

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 02:24:15 GMT

I guess there is some truth to this saying. For the past few exams I've had I haven't really put much effort into them at all. Much to my surprise I ended up getting some pretty damn good grades. The last test being the highest grade in the class. Well... I guess this kind of led me to beleive that I could put off studying fluid and electrolytes until the night before the exam. Ooops. I got a 79. That's a C. That's worse than the last C I got which was an 83. I'm really gonna have to start kicking my butt in this class. The next test is supposed to be the HARDEST test of the semester. It's on acid-base balance. If I do bad on the test I'm out of the program. CRAP. I have no cushion room. This sucks.

sleepy time sue

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 04:26:08 GMT

I'm on spring break. It's only 10:20 pm and I'm tired! What the hay man? Anyhoodle, there's nothin too exciting happening on my end of the world these days. I joined a gym for only $10/month! Pretty awesome, eh? It's open 24 hours and it's pretty nice inside. I ran 3 miles today. Yay for me! I'm also going to Wisconsin this Friday because Sergio discovered he has a long lost cousin up there and they recently re-connected. Ahhh. My dad is on the treadmill again and it is so scary because it makes the whole house feel like it's in the middle of an earthquake. hehe. Oke doke smokey. I'm outtie like a belly button. Too-da-loo.
Kare

Will someone please hire me already?

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 03:35:16 GMT

I need a job people!

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 04:09:56 GMT

Can someone who knows a little bit more about this than I do explain to me what is going on with John Nemecek @ SAU? I just read something in the news about him.

v.day

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 04:00:00 GMT

I am scrooge because I hate valentines day. Hate it. It brings nothin but trouble every year. I also hate snow. I hate all 12 inches of it that are sitting on my driveway making me a prisoner in my own home. Baaa hum bug.

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 06:47:27 GMT

It's 12:42 am. I'm really tired, I want to go to bed, but I can't. For the past few nights I've been sleeping in the other room because I found 2 gigantic spiders IN my bed!!! Scariest thing ever! Well, my dad for some odd reason has decided that 12:42 am is the perfect time to go on the treadmill and watch TV REALLY loud. This is in the same room that I've been sleeping in. Uggggggg. Whyyyy????!?!?!?!?!

shut up!

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 07:11:05 GMT

I am up v.late! I actually wrote my FIRST resume EVER, and I must say I am very proud of myself. I sound so professional! Every one else already has their summer internships/jobs lined up and what do I have... nothin! Pooo on a poo stick. Why do I have to be the delinquent nursing student?! Maybe cuz I don't give a rat's a$%*!
Pardon my french. I mean, it's not that I don't care... I DO care. I just get really ANNOYED at all of those people who are obnoxiously competitive and complain about getting B's (nursing school is hard dammit- we are lucky to be passing!) News flash- there is a NURSING SHORTAGE people! Hellooooo! That means that we will ALL have jobs as soon as we graduate. Geeeeesh.